1 change at a time.
Every day is a new chance to improve yourself. But how do you get started? I am an avid student of learning new things. YouTube is my friend. Here is what I have picked up so far this year. Actually, I started committing to life-altering changes in October of 2021. That is when I decided to give up alcohol 100%. Surprisingly enough I don’t crave the substance. Most times when I see it being abused in movies or in person, I feel sorry for the slaves to that poison.
I was enslaved for 40 years. I have paid the price with my health, relationships, finances, and my moral compass. Now that I am free I am learning how to be a sober me. At times I am nervous and unsure of the future. There are mornings that I find it hard to get out of bed. And I am having a hard time selling. Yes, selling.
It’s interesting that every day now is quite different. I am not attached to a vice so I have more free time. This ‘free time’ I have been inappropriately using. I find myself watching movies all day long. I am conscious of this. I don’t chastise myself instead I give thanks for not drinking. It has been 3 months and 10 days since my last drink. I knew it wasn’t going to be an easy transition, but I did hope that I would be further along with my business. As I mentioned I am having a difficult time selling.
So in getting back to what I have learned so far, here it is.
They say change is hard. Man, they aren’t kidding. In there lies the lesson. Everything worth anything in life is difficult. There are no overnight success stories, none. There never were and never will be.
There are no overnight success stories, none. There never were and never will be.
This is good news for us fools with blinders on that have a vision. On the subject of vision, I have been blind to my path in life until yesterday. I don’t know what made yesterday’s dog walk the time for a revelation. Maybe it had to do with me watching the documentary on Andy Warhol.
I met him once at the signing of the Molly Ringwald issue of Interview magazine. I remember being more interested in drinking the free champagne. I can now see the faulty wiring in my brain. I was in the presence of brilliance and all I could think about was getting drunk, how sad.
Anyway, so back to the dog walk.
A question stemmed from the fact that I had not felt like doing anything since December. I imagined this was due to the absence of alcohol. The question was very simple, “what do you love doing?” The answer was saddening, “I love watching movies.” This understanding of myself and my laziness was disheartening, but there was a glimpse of hope. At least I loved doing something, although not prolific on my part.
“I love watching movies.”
I reworked the question. “What are you going to be remembered for?” I thought about why I went to film school. The answer was simple, “you love movies, so make them.” And direct them with the heart of Quentin Tarantino and make movies you want to watch.
The world needs entertainment, so why not entertain them? Tell great stories to satisfy your desire to express yourself. And if you can do it for others, sell that too. Every person or business needs to keep its audience entertained, plain and simple. Stories maintain healthy relationships.
Now I have something to sell, something that I love and that can benefit us all.
Yes, one step at a time is how it all works. My first step was getting sober. Three months later, I decided to start making movies. So now I am a sober filmmaker. I think I can live with that.
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